so far yet so near

i cant make myself understand
still im being so blind..
that this feeling so true
and i almost know everything about you..

i really dont know why,
a simple message from you make me smile
wishin' for a simple conversation
even if its only an imagination..

i can still remember the way we talked to each other before
especially the day you said that im immature
im still wondrin how things change..
from kiddy fights to makin love almost every night..

im always making a way
just to be part of your day
because i know someday
things will never be again this way
i know its so hard to believe
but memories with you
are the only things i could keep..

i always wanted to say sorry for somethings..

im sorry that i cant be there where you are right now..
im sorry that i cant wipe your tears when they're falling..
im sorry that i cant be there whenever you feel sad..
im sorry that i cant feed you with sweet kisses..
im sorry that i cant embrace you when you need comfort..
im sorry that i cannot sit there beside you and listen to everything that you need to say..
im sorry that i cant be there and cheer you up at the courtside whenever you play basketball..
im sorry that i could'nt wipe your eyeglasses with my own handkerchief whenever your eyeglasses gets moist..
im sorry that cant be there and lend you my hands and hold you whenever you feel weak..
im sorry that i cant be there..
to hear how you breathe..
to hold your chest and feel tyour heartbeat with my own hands..
to see how you smile..
how you laugh..
how you get angry..

and above all..
im so sorry that im not there to take care of you..
and to make you feel how important you are to me..


but still im happy because atleast you didn't see the tears i shed while writng this..
i love you..
even if i only met you in a stupid chatroom..
i love you..
even if i cant txt you..
i love you..
even if i havent met you..
i love you..
stupid as it sounds.
i love you beyond the distance..


and yes.. i choose to love you.. the silly naughty but warm hearted GUY because you also choose to love the imperfect weird childish immature GIRL..

and i know, i really know, in that destined place only God knows when or how..
i will meet someone from the future. and its getting clearer to me now. hoping that it would be you, and if that day comes, maybe we both know how our story will end.. you know im fond of writing our mini stories diba? do you ever wonder, hindi kaba nagtataka? walang ending diba?
u know why? because our story has'nt yet ended..it will definitely end, but not now..

and hey, someday..
i will hear the audience clapping thier hands, smiling at me, full of love, while im standing there at the stage, telling them our story..

not as romantic as cinderella and her prince charming.. not as tragic as romeo and juliet..
and not melancholic as jack and rose of titanic, but instead just a simple lovestory of a girl and a boy who have loved each other and known each other so much even before they met..

i raelly dont believe in magic..
but theres a certain magic i want to believe in..
the MAGIC OF LOVE.. and i wish that everyone will find that magic in their lives too..

i can hear a voice.. he is calling my name from afar.. whisphering words of love through my ears.. im hearing his voice right now..
i can hear how he breathe..
because im with you..
beyond the distance..